Elizabeth Grace

Proof I'm Pathetic.

2009-06-23T03:37:44Z

I took a quiz on Facebook today here is my result.

The Under-appreciated Best Friend
You try to keep everyone happy, and sometimes at your expense. You foot the bill when you're all out to celebrate, just so everyone can have a good time and not worry about money. You'd do anything for your friends, even though they forget to thank you or don't show you the appreciation you deserve. Although it's nice that you're being everyone's rainbow, think about yourself, too. No one will think you're a bad friend if you say no to some of their requests

bbblessthan3 @ 2009-06-22T14:44:00

2009-06-22T19:07:27Z

Dear Batman,
Its lonely in the bat-cave without you.
Alfred is doing all the tidy-ing up and looking at the big penny is only fun for so long.
I promised I wouldn't touch any of the gadgets or drive the bat-mobile.
But ever since you started fighting crime alone I've felt no reason to be here.
The thing is I've got nowhere else to go. I thought you said you wouldn't work so much.
You promised me you'd take me with you.
I promise I won't get hurt, I'm big enough to take care of myself. I can help.
I know I could be good if you'd just give me a chance, Batman I feel like things are changing.
Your too busy for me now, and I realize this. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough to help,
But I'll show you, I'll be one of the greatest heroes Gotham has ever seen.
I won't ever forget you.

Love,
Robin....

Your former "sidekick"

I'm Pathetic

2009-06-20T02:59:03Z

So I felt bad for myself today. The blind truth is... I have NO friends. I let it get to me really bad today. On the way to dinner Greg told me he wasn't going to spend the night playing video games with me, he was going to spend the night with his friends. First off I hate when plans change. I'm not good at just having one thing planned and then having what I knew was going to happen just change in a seconds notice. It freaks me out. I should get over that. I guess I just like to know what's going on at all times. But getting back on topic, I freaked out and got all upset. At first I was upset because He was leaving me. After we began talking (arguing) about it he said something that made me realize why I was so mad at him. "How do you think my friends feel? They never get to see me Beth. I spend all my free time with you." And it was when he said that I began to cry, and cry really hard. You see I realized that all the times I try to impress his friends was only because I wanted them to like me. I wanted someone that I could call my friends. It was when I told him "At least you have friends that want to see you" that I think he realized that all I have is him. He's not just my boyfriend he's my best friend. I feel like my best friend got a boyfriend and pawned me off on Greg which was "nice" of her but I still miss having friends. I broke down and even after I wiped my tears and put on my mask, I still felt like at any second I could start crying my eyes out. While he ordered our food I had to hold back the tears from escaping my eyes. There was one thing that stopped them. I looked over in line and there was a little girl staring at me and when I saw her I smiled at her and she smiled so big that I knew she knew there was something wrong, and she just wanted to secretly let me know it was okay to be sad. Or at least thats how I felt. But I sit here alone on my bed now and know that I'm going to be alright. I may not have any friends but I have Greg for now, and my books and I should be thankful enough for that. I need to stop trying to impress everyone and just start being myself again. I'm beginning to forget who I really am. And I don't want that to happen. I need to be me.

Baby,

2009-06-19T19:23:45Z

I love you so much, but you really can make me angry. You mean more to me than the setting of the sun and the crashing of the waves. If I could give you the entire universe I would in a heartbeat, and I'm sorry I can't. I pray each night that I could be the perfect girl for you. I try so hard to hold my words in mouth and try to think before I speak, but most of the time these thoughts and words pour out of my mouth like water from a broken damn. And I'm sorry I can't keep these thoughts to myself. It also isn't fair that you say you can read me like an open book. Is it because you know me so well, or can everyone see through these walls that surround me? I never thought I could love anyone as much as I love you. I try harder and harder everyday to impress you. I hope it works. I want to be your "dream girl" it's why I ask you all the questions that I do, its often why I ask what you think of other girls. I'm sorry that I often ask you if you think that I'm pretty, but you have to understand that I am a girl and hearing that you think I'm pretty or even beautiful means the world to me. But more than just hearing that you think I'm attractive I love to hear why you love me. I guess we as girls just love the reassurance. As for the reasons I love you its everything from your tiny butt and the way you'll look me into the eye down to the fact that at the end of the night your the one I want to be with more than any other person in the world. I dream about you, your arms wrapped around me forever holding me so tight. I couldn't imagine spending my life with anyone but you. I know we have our ups and downs but honestly the ups beat the downs by a million and two. I love you... to the moon and back a thousand times. forever.

I think this may be my getaway.

2009-03-20T02:32:33Z

I sit here just out of my shower. Sometimes I feel like I take showers to wash away the thoughts, the pain, the frustation, and the confusion. The hotter the water the more numb I become to all the things that are bothering me. To just stand there with the hot water beating against my back soaking my hair and know that's all I can think about is so refreshing. But as soon as I step out its like a slap to the face and all that I left behind is right in front of me. I have so many thoughts speeding through my mind that if you asked me right this minute what I was thinking I wouldn't have an idea.

And most of my thoughts are about "him". And everyday I become just a little bit more confused about what I am suppose to do. So I stand there soaking up every last detail, every last kiss, every last arguement, every last goodmorning, every last I love you, and I wonder what my life would be like without him and I wonder what it will be like in the end with him. I feel like I babble on and on but I guess I need to babble on to collect my thoughts. Everyday I learn something new about him. Somedays its good, others its not. I think I'll keep him. I just pray that he understands. I love him, but how much?

And then there's "them", I know they love me. Although they don't always say it I know it deep down in my heart. They're doing the best they can and I'm greatful for that. We don't always see eye to eye. But whoever will? I'm ready to move on but I'm not sure if they're ready to let go. It'll be a sad dayfor us all. And if I could tell them anything at all I would say,"Quit worrying you did the best you could do, its all on me from here.My choices are my own thank you for guiding me down the right path. I think we can take my training wheels off now I'm ready to ride. I love you."

And lastly there's "it". Its a scary place full of decisions, consequences,and heartache. I'm either going to embrace it or get knocked onto my ass. Either way its the roads that I choose to make it the journey that it is. I'm not going to lie it's pretty damn scary. I'm pretty sure that 63% of the time it's gunna knock me on my ass. But I'm going to focus on that 37% of the time that I'm going to embrace it. Who knows my numbers could be wrong.

So in the end the water is warm and my head is filled with thoughts again as I wrap my towel around my vulnerable body.